MAGIC KAITO and DETECTIVE CONAN

whoa. okay, if you're a big fan of detective conan, then you're probably aware who the infamous moonlight magician is, the elusive KAITOU KID.

kaitou kid is actually kuroba kaito, seventeen years old and a highschool student at ekoda high of nakagawa prefecture, which is just near beika prefecture, where kudou shinichi, the  internationally-acclaimed detective of the east, lives.

the crazy thing is, kaito LOOKS EXACTLY LIKE shinichi (except kaito's hair is messier)  and they even have SIMILAR VOICES. kaito's blood is also type-B and both their IQs exceed 200. both of them are bored with school and both of them have great deduction skills. both of them are in love with their childhood friends (aoko for kaito and ran for shinichi) and both of them, but they don't know it yet, are linked to each other in the oddest ways.

so how did a simple, mischievous boy like kaito became the international criminal KID? well, it's actually because kaito's dad, kuroba touichi, is the original KID. his dad died, though because of an accident during a magic show and mysteriously, that time, KID stopped going on his heists. eight years later, when kaito turned 17, he discovered a secret room in their house and found all KID's stuff in there. there was also a taped voice message from his dad explaining everything. konosuke jii, his dad's assitant, who attempted to revive the legend of KID, also explained everything to kaito when they had a magic duel (which kaito won) that night.

jii explained that his dad didn't die in an accident but was really murdered by the Black Organization, the mafia who forced his dad to use his magic prowess to steal jewels from all over the world. the blak organization was after the Pandora Gem, a very special gem that cries tears of immortality under the passing of a comet.

so that's when highschool student kuroba kaito decided to continue his dad's work and become KAITOU KID, but working against the black organization this time. his aim is to find the still-missing pandora gem, before the black organization does... so he start going on his heists, stealing jewels then examing if it contains pandora (pandora is said to be concealed inside anoher gem). if it doesn't, he usually returns the things he stole.

because of his enigmatic quality and uncanny way of stealing, KID gained fans from all over not just japan, but the world. they are all glad that the mysterious phantom thief is back! (he's called a phantom thief because he uses his magic to steal and escape)

on the other hand, back in beika prefecture, the highschool detective kudou shinichi has unfortunately encountered gin and vodka, members of the black organization. he accidentally witnessed a drug deal and when the mafia found out about this, they tried to kill shinichi with an experimental drug and left him. little did they know that the drug didn't kill shinichi but only shrank him to his gradeschool size. professor agasa, a friend of the detective, advised him to not tell anyone of his situation for the organization may still be after him. so he lives under the disguise of gradeschooler edogawa conan and lives with the mouri family (ergo, with his girlfriend mouri ran!) but ran and his dad, mouri kogorou, does not know that conan is shinichi.

mouri kogorou is also a detective but very useless so conan helps him every now and then by letting him sleep with his anaesthetic gun/watch and using his voice to solve the crimes.

about a few months (but in a series, around two seasons) after shinichi was shrunk, he hears of another heist notice by kaitou kid. shincihi does not remember but he and KID has encountered before (when he was still shinichi). during one of kaito's earlier heists, (he planned to steal the jewels on the hand sof a clock tower) shinichi almost caught him.

so during this encounter (where KID vowed to take the black pearl) they face off and eventually develops a relationship, which, in my opinion, is very hard to describe. they have an odd understanding, they respect each other but still detests each other.

they're like...a single coin but shinichi is one side and kaito is on the other. both of them don't know that they're after the same people, the black organization. and they meet and face off and challenge each other every now and then. finally, (in movie3: last magician of the century) KID discovers that edogawa conan is kudou shinichi. he keeps his secret and since then, they kind of help each other when the other one's in trouble.

they have a weird relationship, swear. and it has insipred many yaoi fanfics. (i made one myself, haha)

so..that's just the intro so you people will have an idea who the two men in my life are like...

AND WHY AM I RAMBLING!??!?! MAA, TS BECAUSE.... THE NEW MAGIC KAITO IS OUT!!! WOOHOOO!!!!!! IM CHOOOOO HAPPPPIIIIII!!!!!!!!!!

after almost ten years...(okay, exag un) NA-RESURRECT SI KID!!!! CHOOOOOO AAAAAAAPPPIIII!!!!!!!!! (kasi, nadodocument lang ung adventures ni kid sa detective conan. dati may manga talaga na siya ung focus. it came out before detective conan..)

o, teka, eto ang link pra mabasa nio ung scanlation: http://conan.wagnergrp.com/

jan din ako nagbabasa ng DC manga....homaygaaasssssh im chooo appppiiii talga....

HAAAAAAPPPYYY HOLIPDAYS TALAGA!!!! AS INNNNN!!!!!!


WWWOOOOOOOHHHHHOOOOOOO!!!!!!

UP enrollment checklist

UP Enrollment Checklist (What to bring, tips, etc.)

Iba talaga ang UP reg experience! So in the spirit of reg/enrollment week, ito ang naihanda kong tips para sa mga future isko at iska! Based from experience ito at wag niyo ako idedemanda kung may pumalpak o napahamak kayo sa mga suggestions ko. Aba, choice niyo kung susundin niyo ito!

What to do the day before:

• Ihanda ang bag (may what to bring mamaya...teka..)



• Magdasal “Lord, sana, at most, 5pm ako matapos… sana po wag ako pulikatin kakapila”



• i-check ang mga na-approve na subjects ng CRS (para alam mo ang mga I-mamanual mo o icacancell mo di ba?)



• i-scan ang course outline (para alam ang mga pwede pang kunin na mga subjects in case di natupad ang lahat ng kukunin mo fr this sem; in short, alternatives)



• magpractice ng smile para kung charms na lang ang natitirang paraan, gamitin!!!



• Alamin kung cleared ka ba last sem. Like, kung nasubmit pa mga necessary papers for you to enroll this sem (eg transcript o form137 ng skul mo dati) kasi kung hindi, takbo na sa OUR o admin ng bldg concerned!



• Magbasa ng hand-outs about reg process o magpa-pa-advise sa mga upperclassmen friends (what to expect, ano2 dapat dalin? Magpa-crash course about reg/enrollment process at mga bagay tulad ng change/add mat)



• Familiarize self with the different kinds of forms (Form5a, form5, form 4, form 6, form-ula, etc)



• Alamin kung sino ang adviser (duh. Obyus ito kung bakit)



• Magpahinga! (Takbuhan bukas ito at pahirapan bukas kaya sulitin na ang tulog!)



• Uminom ng energy drink o multivitamins (ito meron ang taong happy sa reg!)



• Makipag-organize sa block o friends sa ibang colleges at magplano (effective to pramis. Mag-assignan na kayo kung sino2 ang pupunta sa bawat building to report about status of enlistments pag manual enlistment and drama niyo)



• Prepare ang isusuot na damit kinabukasan (kailangan comfy at tipong makakatakbo ka)



• Text/greet everyone good luck (maniwala tayo sa good karma!)

What to bring naman!

• Extra shirt, towel (gusto mo bang lumagkit ka? Ako ayoko.)



• Medicine (painkillers, energizer, gamot kung may ubo/sipon, betadine o band-aid at inhaler kung may hika at ferrous sulfate kung anemic. Aatakihin at aatakihin tayong lahat nito)



• Kikay kit (don’t forget this! Para naman ma-referesh tayo every once in a while di ba? Tsaka what if makabangga mo crush mo?)



• Dating form5 (lalo na pag ngayon mo pa lang kukunin ang mga class cards mo)



• ID (ay nako! Wag ito lilimutin!)



• ID strap (preferably kasama sa ID, di ba? May mga buildings na di nagpapapasok ng mga walang strap na ID)



• Class cards (lalo na pag may prereq ung class na kukunin mo ngayon)



• Extra copy ng course outine



• Umbrella (sobrang init, kapag umulan)



• Jacket (wala lang. For more. What if airconed ang classroom na hinihintayan mo for enlistment? What if super lamig? Eh di nanigas ka? Or what if nasira umbrella mo at umuulan?)



• extra footwear (bahala kayo kung san kayo kumportable. May posibilidad na malaspag ang suot niyo kakalakad kaya buti nang manigurado)



• clearance slip (kung di mo pa nasusubmit sa admin)



• pera (duh. Malamang. Pang-matrikula, pang-lunch at merienda, pang-transpo. Kahit iskolar tayo ng bayan, di ibig sabihing libre lahat noh!)



• cellphone (for communication purposes at para madali I-contact ang blockmates at friends sa status nila tipong, “uy! Anjan ka sa gym nagyon? O ano? May slots pa ba? Marami pa?” kasi kung wala na, e di magsasayang ka lang ng oras mo pagpunta dun. At least forewarned ka na.)



• gameboy, ipod, mp3, libro, crossword puzzle, coloring book (mga panlibang) kasi maiinip at maiinip ka kakahintay *ehem * assessment * ehem*



• bote o jug ng tubig (for obvious reasons… makakatipid ka pa!)



• pagkain (mga mabibigat na snack like packed sandwiches o box ng crackers) dahil di mo alam baka abutin ka ng lunch sa pila o kaya nama’y abutin ka ng gutom walking from one bldg to the other



• common sense at presence of mind (wag itong kakalimutan sa bahay!)



• optimism (wag mawalan ng pag-asa!)



• kendi (baka mahilo ka! O mahilo ang kasama mo! Gusto mo ba ng may bubuhatin?)



• bomba. Oo ung sumasabog! Para pag desperado ka na, magpaka-terorista ka! “ILABAS NIYO NA ANG NA-ASSESS NA FORM5 KO/ ISIKSIK NIYO NA AKO SA KLASE NA YAN! KUNDI, PAPASABUGIN AKO ANG BUILDING NA ITO!” mwahaha. Joke lang.



• patience (dahil sa pila at oo, nakakabadtrip ang pag-prioritize sa tri-coll students pero matuto tayong magtimpi. After reg na lang natin batukan ang mga yan… hehe…)



• ballpen (siguraduhin may tinta!) dahil marami tayong I-fifill-out na forms!



• Watch (para mindful ka sa time at di ka abutan ng closing!)



• Your sweetest smile and convincing powers (lalo na kung magpapa-pag prerog ka!)



• Respect and politeness (wag naman kalimutan magpaka-polite at irespeto ang mga nag-eenlist at ang adviser at ang mga tao sa admin at SC. Tao rin ang mga yan, at kung pagod ka, pagod rin  sila. The least you can do is be nice to them. Sige ka, baka kung ano gawin niyan sa form mo!)



• An open mind (tanggapin din ang pagkatalo. Tanggapin ang di-mapaliwanag na pag-prioritize sa tri-coll students. Tanggapin na pwede ka abutin ng tatlong araw.)



• SARILI!!! Bawal ang proxy! Haha!

What to do after reg/enrollment 

• I-memorize na ang schedule, alamin ang rooms at mag-isip na ng ruta at para rin malaman mo na ang breakmates mo!



• Kung kulang ka pa ng units – hala! Mag-ready na for prerog! Magtanong2 kung ano2 ang mga subjects na pwede mo pa pasukan (usually may mga sumusulpot pa rin na mga bagong klase sa CRS) at kung sino2 ang mga mababait na prof na tumatanggap ng prerog



• Change/add mat angdrama mo? Alamin ang proseso at asikasuhin na ang mga forms!



• Nalaman mo ba na di mo na classmate ang crush mo? Aba’y magluksa na. Haha. Joke.



• Check sa CRS kung sino ang prof mo (may sched dun na nakalagay kung sino ang prof per subject at class)



• Kung alam mo na mga prof mo at may kilala kang naging prof un dati, hiramin na ang notebook/readings nila at magpa-advise ukol sa teaching style, etc. para prepared di ba?



• Bumili na ng school materials (the usual, notebook, yellow pad) at ibase sa mga requirements na alam mo kailangan sa klase mo (eg SLR cam sa film110 o mapa sa Geog)



• Magdasal. Napaka-unpredictable pa rin sa mga first days kaya ipasa-diyos na lan natin.



• WAG WALAIN ANG BAGONG FORM5! DUH!

So ayun. Guideline lang siya, actually pero more or less helpful talaga pag prepared. Oo exciting ang maskipaps lifestyle pero sa huli, hindi guaranteed na maayos ang magiging daloy ng reg mo. Mas mataas pa rin ang chance na magiging mas tolerable ang reg experience pag prepared di ba?

real

a year ago, i had a dream. i dreamt i was late for class... or work... i'm not sure. but i was late for something. i checked the garage and to my horror, the car isn't there. i have no spare money to commute and ultimately, i was alone.

this year, that dream, or rather, nightmare is coming true. not in the sense that every event in that dream gave me deja' vus, but in the sense that lately, i've been feeling helpless and dependent on things. i'm arrogant - that i confess to so it's natural that i don't like admitting that i'm wrong and admitting that i need help. every time i ask a favor from someone, trust me, it's like suicide. and maybe it is. this left me thinking that i may be much more fragile than i perceive myself to be but i felt that nothing actually changed. i'm still the pompous bitch that i was a year ago. speaking of, i really don't get it why people think i'm such a gentle creature. maybe i am, at times... but deep down, i'm as evil as the devil can be. no, my dear readers, i'm no scaring you. i've tested how mean i can get and it scared me. i'm only narrating the hard-to-swallow truth. i'm agreeable most of the time, yes. i'm mostly jovial and light-hearted also... but i don't know... i'm really confused with who i am right now, or rather, who i want to be.

sigh. yes, this is one of m many complaints about college again. it's just that i've really seen how the real world is (now). and it's really tough. most of you know that i've grown faster than my liking. i've practically rushed all the things in my life. i'm always jumping from one endeavor to the next, getting things done and being damn good at it. but what do i get out of it, really? at the end of the day, i still feel... empty and apathetic. as if i don't care about my achievements or all the things i've accomplished. it looks good on paper, yeah. but what have i done? did it make me happy?

happy - something i've realized that i'm not familiar with. the very few times (well, ok, not few) i've been truly and genuinely happy, i wasn't being myself. the one happy was that idealistic, carefree girl who always stood up for what she believed in. now, she is simply a ghost of who i am. it hurted me to see her go but i have to sacrifice her to prepare myself for the life ahead. times are hard. college is hard. the people are even harder. it means i should be hardest on myself. i dunno. i just don't want anyone pushing me around. how come people expect me to be so perfect, anyways? i'm not. i'm just human like everybody else. i have my shortcomings, i've succumbed to temptations, i get sick and i cry. i bleed and sometimes, i feel like dying. (shylock, is this you? :p) sigh. i admit that i'm envious of my former classmates, who can still laugh and be a kid. i was never given that privilage. ok, i act like a kid most of the time, but it's just pretend. i ever felt like i was a kid and i was never treated like one either. i never felt someone assuring me that thing sare going to be all right and all that. people just expected me to be capable enough to take care of myself because i'm who i am. i also don't get why people go berserk when i decide to show my flaws and be "human" for a while. oh, sorry for being sick. i didn't mean to. there's a virus going around and i don't have a force field to perevent myself from catching it. haaaay. life. real life.

welcome, dear readers, to my first real blog entry.

if only real life were life animes and animes were like fanfics ii

She told me that he was always so careful, that the first time he had her on his bed he cried into her breasts. He exhaled her name slowly each time, then chanted it like a song; their bodies in a raindance, clouds frantically responding and covering her mind and irises. She paused, sometimes, in her retelling to me. She would stare at the ground as though it were his eyes, silent as though his ‘I love you’ was whispering in her ears.

She said it was her fault. He had a brilliant mind. He knew Napikov and Shakespeare like the veins in her wrists. He knew Masaoka Shiki and City of Trees as well as her body. Or maybe better than her body. She said that he called her mature for a child, but that she must not be growing anymore. She was still ten years old inside, but now it was just that she had breasts.

And she admitted that she was no poet, that she was merely an observer scribbling sentence fragments and wording her rapid pulse on paper with torn and jagged edges. She was a child who blushed, and she did not like classical music, and Yoshino in the Moonlight was pretty but hard to follow. She stared at her wrists, blood vessels and branched blue lines her roadmap. Then she shook her head and murmured that she couldn’t find his love anymore.

Slowly, she talked less. To me. To everyone. She gained weight, then lost it tenfold. Her soft hair paled and thinned and then became a lumpy ponytail; effortless.

He waved at me once in passing, unknowing, and all at once I understood her silence. There was a strip of gold on his left finger. And her hands were bare.

I wanted to tell her that she was just sixteen years old, I wanted to tell her that love was not reciting the English or knowing all there was of literary spring in Japan. I wanted to tell her that she had a pretty face and that her body was still as soft, her eyes—with a little hope—could still brighten again. I wanted to tell her that somebody would mirror all of the love she had to give, if not today, then someday. I wanted to tell her, but she wasn’t in school.

She didn’t leave a note. Whoever found her, I hope they were gentle, I hope they did not damage her name and label her insane. It would be hard to see otherwise, I suppose, to open the bathroom door and find the definition of loveliness and chances and time lying cold and still. Her wrists were red, rolled carpets bleeding around her like bloodwings.

They call it suicide, but I’m sure she was looking. She sat on the tiles with a razor, slashing at every word of love he’d ever spoken to her. She seared the skin that his hands used to brush. And she searched for the literature he’d memorized in sync with her anatomy.

Growing exhausted in her search, she found nothing and lost the will to try. Unable to understand the poetry, she watched herself open and did not realize that she had become it. Wide and unlimited, like the cherry trees bursting into bloom. She closed her eyes, and gave herself to the unyielding spring.

-excerpt  from somnambulating's CCS fan fic, City of Trees

somnambulating. City of Trees. 2004. 23 Oct 2006. <http://www.fanfiction.net/s/1734371/1/>

birthday for the seventeenth time

i'll be seventeen in a couple of minutes...

i took a bath. i wore my UP shirt and old flowery pajamas (to hell with fashion right now) and continued watching detective conan movie 7: crossroads in ancient capital. i then asked myself if the past year has been fulfulling and with a sigh, i said yes. i fell in love, i got my heart broken (again), i graduated from high school, i've been to baguio, i've produced about hmmm...ilang stories uli? i've stayed in a lot of hotels (pun intended = i've been travelling a lot) i've passed all the schools i've applied for and even the scholarships. i've recited a prayer in front of the whole STC HS community without going fast (thank you sir zaraspe for the tips - "pikit mo mga mata mo tapos hinga ka nang malalim...") i've written my classmates' monologues, sagutang diyalogo, poems, reports, etc without getting caught. i've been grounded at least 5 times. i've been caught in a bar. i've called an ex for his bday. i've written a college-level story when i was still in HS. i've been registered to globe's unli4ever. i've gotten used to sleepovers. i've opened my mind to new ideas. i've lost my religion. i've learned to express my anger when i'm mad. i've learned to stand up for myself. i've learned to commute. i've learned of the inter-and-intra subjectivity tests. i've learned how to do a lawrence curve in excel. i've learned when to trust and when not to trust. i've lost friends. i've gained friends. i've lost myself. i've discovered some things about me. i've been the top 2 applicant for UPJC this sem. i've been exempted for world lit, rel, calc, bio. i've learned of forbidden love. i've opened my mind to new ideas. i rediscovered my love for detective conan. i've pranked people. i learned my lessons. i've been humbled. i've been praised. i've gained weight. i've learned the value of truth. i've done so many things in just a span of one year. this blog entry isn't enough to enumerate all these, but for all the people who have satyed by my side through all of these, i love u guys! seriously. thank you. i promise to smile more these days. i really love u guys! and i love me!!! (hehe) but most of all, i love surprises. try to surprise me, wil you? you know who i want ;p

happy bday, ernica. you're seventeen now. wow. that's a ten and a seven! haha.   

if only real life were like animes and animes were like fan fics

It took all her courage to finally make the decision of coming back to the academy. She somehow thought that he needed to know and feel how she really felt. Since she was fourteen, she couldn’t help but hide her feelings for him and act like everything was still okay. She ventured into a relationship, thinking that what she had with him was just an infatuation but… still, the feeling remained. She even knew she loved him now, not as someone superior or respected -but as a woman would love a man. Their memories made her blush like the schoolgirl she was.

The classes in the elementary division were probably over now, Mikan thought, as her head kept glancing back and forth to confirm the time from the wall clock. Looking around and saw that no one was really around, she sneaked her hand inside her purse and took a small round yellow orb and held it across her face. Giving it a firm squeeze, she said, "Check!"

The smiley ball's eyes blinked twice and announced: "Analyzing Mikan Sakura. Currently, there are: no blemishes, no left over food in teeth, no loose strand of hair. Physical appearances ninety-nine point nine percent good! Body system: Warning! Heart is severely palpitating! See doctor quickly!"

Mikan stuffed the ball back inside her bag and rolled her eyes. "Ninety-nine percent good? Gods, Hotaru…"

Mister Smiley Ball was Hotaru's latest invention specially made for Mikan. Mikan actually just asked her best friend how she looked one afternoon and knowing the genius mechanical inventor, Hotaru gave her the ball that assessed a person's condition inside and out. Surely, the ball was accurate but Mikan was smart enough to follow the smiley's advice to see a doctor.

She wasn’t dying, she knew it. She was just too nervous to see him.

"Mikan, is that you?" an effeminate but deepened voice she thought she remembered too well asked from behind.

Mikan whiffed her head to the side and grinned with delight. She hopped off the couch and turned to him. "Narumi-sensei…!" Before the man could reply, she flung herself on his arms, wrapping her arms around his neck. "Narumi-sensei… I've missed you!"

Narumi was speechless. Not only was he surprised to see her, but he was too surprised to see her.

He put his hands on her back to accept her friendly hug, tangling his fingers against the long tresses of silky hair. As she pressed her close, for a second he forgot the student she had been and closed his eyes, taking a deep breath of her sweet perfume.

Was this woman Mikan Sakura?

excerpt from Goshikku Seirei's Gakuen Alice fanfic, Foget Me Not

Seirei, Goshikku. Reunion with Butterflies. 2006. 17 Oct 2006. <http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2879052/1/>

for more, for less

sabi ng mga upperclassmen frends ko, sa UP daw, bababa standards mo... tipong, nawawala paunti-unti ung pagka-idealistic mo at mas nagiging realistic ka...sabi nila, dito mo daw malalalman kung sino ka talaga..

naniniwala ako dun. ngayon pa nga lang, feel ko ang daming nagbago sa akin. i may not necessarily like who i'm turning into but it's still an eye-opener to discover who i'm capable of becoming into. malay.

namimiss ko na ang black headband ng PE na nakaburda pa ang pangalan mo...na ginagamit everytym nagp-PE at nagtetest sa STC...isuot ko rin kaya yun pag nage-exam? in fairness, sinuot ko yun nung nag-UPCAT, ACET at DLSUCET ako. and take note, di lang ako nakapasa...scholar pa...

*sigh* sa UP, less intense ang mga tests...parang, wla lng. test ba ito? bakit sa dadalwang pisong notebook tau nagsusulat?? sanay p nm nako sa pinupukpok ako tsaka pinapamukha tlga na "HOY!!! FINALS TO!!!! PAG BINAGSAK MO 2, MAGPAALAM KA NA SA MGA PANGARAP MO!!!" malay. di pa nagsi-sink in sa akin na ganito na ang mga bagay2 ngayon.

FINALS NA!!!!

gudluck sa lahat!!!

5:1

u read that as "five is to one". ratio kasi. ts also the title of one of my future novelletes about these 5 guys (3 triplets and their 2 cousins) who all fell in love with the same girl. but they don't know it's the same girl since that girl has a lot of identities kasi she...aauuurrghh...spoiler....basahin nlang....

grabe ang buhay. and daming ratios. sa stats plang eh. sa opportunity cost. "sa bawat 1 chokolateng naproprodyus, .5 asako ng bigas ang di nproprodyus" churva...

haay. ang puso rin ba, pwedeng gawan ng ratio o opportunity cost? sa bwat minutong iniisip ko si batman, isang minuto ko ring di naiisip si superman....mga ganun?

sana kasing dali ng fractions at ratios ang mga emotions noh...sana nacocompute mo rin xa...

while i am sleeping

lately, pag nagigising ako, bigla na lang ako malulungkot. hindi ko alam. yung feeling na....basta. malungkot. or what i call, "enigmatic torment".

hindi ako masaya. period. ayoko na matulog.

pero at the same time, minsan, hinihiling ko na di na ako magising sa mga masasayang panaginip tungkol sa nakaraan.

far-sighted

turns out i'm far-sighted. sheesh. i just found out last wedensday. sigh. cough. and i thought i was pregnant. sigh. cough.

i'm wearing glasses now. and my hair's all curled at the tips. i braid it sometimes. seriously, i'm living in dreamworld, where i can pretend to be someone else or create a character. i disguise, i hide, i mock. i'm frowning more often. (at least i'm not crying anymore) and well, having to wear the glasses sort of was the last straw.

stupid medical check-ups. they say i'm "normal sighted" but if you analyze the tests performed in those check-ups, ul realize that it only diagnosesnear-sightedness. whatever. sheesh. now my head hurts. this is how the doctor explained it to me, "ur eyes are so sharp that it can see things from very far away so what more if it's near d b? thas why ur eyes are strained all the time..." all right. blame it on over-eating carrots.

having this uhmm...condition, actually reflected something about my personality. i see distant things. in tagalog, mas maliwanag sa akin ung nakikit ako sa malayo. may pros at cons un malamang. pros, xmpre, i could plan ahead dhl maganda nga foresight ko. (psychic rin b??? hehe..pwede!!!) cons, ah, here...we have to focus on this. UNG SA MALAYO LANG NAKIKITA KO NANG MALIWANAG...so pano na kapag malapit?

look at it this way. kung malayo na ang isang bagay sa akin, doon ko pa lang nakikita, and because of that, doon ko pa lang mas napapansin ung ano o sino man yun. let's focus on "sino"... (aba! analytical na ang pagproproseso!)

hay. totoo nga ang sinabi nila na mas naaapreciate mo lang yung tao pag wala na. si papa, mga HS friends, etc. ayoko talaga ng goodbyes. pero at the same time, i admit, i have the tendency of taking people for granted kapag andyan lang sila. :( malay.

bakit ganun, noh? kapag wala na sila, kapag may kasama na siyang iba, dun mo lang maiisip na di mo pala kayang mwala sila sa tabi mo. nung kaharap mo siya, binabalewala mo...e nung iba na kaharap niya, bakit ka naiinis? haaaaaay.  gulo ng buhay.

siguro nga, kailangan ko na magsuot ng glasses. it could do me some good. i'll give it a try.

tease/mock/die

inaamin ko. mayabang ako. aioko ng hinahamon ako sa mga bagay n obyus namang magagawa ko ng walang ka-effort2..

naaasar ako sa mga taong pinagdududdahan ang super powers ko...belat.. =p

the hell with them...i know who i am and what i'm capable of doing. aioko lang talaga n tinataunt ako.

humanda lang ang maghahamon sa akin o nag-iisip na kaya nila akong higitan sa mga bagay na alam kong bihasa na ako (and that's too many too count..and know..) o, anong disclaimer ko sa simula ng entry na ito?

months of d year

Jan
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.
Feb
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.  Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.  Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.  Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.
Mar
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive.  Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.  Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.  Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.  If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
Apr
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.  Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic.  Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others.  Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.  Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.
Jun 
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5  minutes.
Jul
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.  Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.  Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.  Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.  Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.  dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days
Aug 
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer.  Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone".  Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring.  Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious.  "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent.  Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.
Sept 
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.  Stubborn.  Hasty.  Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.  Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.  If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.
Oct 
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly.  Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.  Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.
Nov 
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times.  Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent.  Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.
Dec
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious.  Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.  Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.  Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.  Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.  Sensitive. [A hot new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too in the next 6 days, if you repost in 5min

book mania

i totally devour all the fictional books i could get my hands on. i prefer stories of forbidden love, unrequited love, historical love and dark love...



love...ang dami kong kilala na pinoproblema yan ngayon.



i honestly think the weather has something to do with it. yeah. global warming is slowly driving us mad.



and i try to keep myself sane by drawing myself into these books. i get to meet these lovely and wonderful characters. i fall in love with them. i befriend them.





aun. wla lng. boys and girls, always remember to feed your minds ah! read books!

ts good for your mind! and your heart. :)

admit it

"But It's Better If I Do"

Now I'm of consenting age to be forgetting you in a cabaret.
Somewhere downtown where a burlesque king may even ask my name
As he sheds his skin on stage
I'm seated and sweating to a dance song on the club's P.A.
The strip joint veteran sits two away
Smirking between dignified sips of her dignified peach and lime daiquiri

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

But, but I'm afraid that I
Well, I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, that's right, well I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

Well, I'm afraid that I
Well, that's right, well I may have faked it
And I wouldn't be caught dead in this place

And isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety
Oh, isn't this exactly where you'd like me
I'm exactly where you'd like me, you know
Praying for love in a lap dance and paying in naivety

Praying for love and paying in naivety
Praying for love and paying in naivety, oh

-panic at the disco-

panawagan

why is it that everytym i want to write something happy, something awful happens and i'm compelled to write about that tragedy.

latest of course, is about my computer. it crashed. the files were corrupted. everything, honey! as in. poof! 6 years of hard work and memories were forever lost in technical oblivion. don't start preaching aboyt back-up. you don't know how hard it is to deal with a computer like mine. it's consatntly sick and totally independent. .it secluded itself from the rest of .... the world? something like that. it's really har dto explain. basta walang back-up.

hay. 100++ na poems. drafts of my two novels (theatre of tragedy and two kingdoms), memoirs of stc days, reports, monologues, buk i wrote for sibika, scripts i wrote both for theater (own version of phantom, merchant act 5, human version of gentlemen of the jungle, misfit) and TV (my KNN eps, seniors ball d movie) mga favorite stories, essays or refelctions n pinagawa at tinago ko, sandamukal n pix ko, mg apaboritong anime, write-ups, notepad diary, slideshow presentation simula nung patay na patay pa ako kay dan r....lahat.....................all of them.......as in lahat................NAGLAHO!

feel ko tuloy im losing my identity (kala nio religion sasabihin ko noh!) feel ko may amnesia ako. im slowly forgetting who i was. who i am. i very much like who i was one year ago. and i very much like to stay like that. you have to hate change sometimes. malay. adjusting p rin b ang tawag d2? parang ang unfair. unlike some of my contemporaries, i have to adjust more. maraming nwala sa buhay ko. mga tao, bagay, hayop, lugar. lahat. feel ko dapat gumawa ako ng bagong tao. malay. naninibago lng tlga ako. sa skul ng alng malaking adjustment na, nakakadishearten lng na sa bahay, adjusting p rin. lahat ng nakasanayan ko, parang wala na.

kaya ng afeel ko, wala na akong sense of who i am. ung bagong katulong pa namin, di ko katimpla sa music. ung mga korni ung pinakikinggan. wla lng. napansin ko lang and nabother ako kc familiar nrn ako sa mga baduy na songs. yep i admit. spoiled brat ako and high maintenance pa. eh gnun ako eh. gusto ko un. aioko magbago kahit sabihin ng mga tao na di maiiwasan ang pagbabago. eh mas masaya ako sa ganung katauhan eh. mas natural ako. mas napapakisamahan. di ako umiiyak gabi2. higit sa lahat, minahal ako ng mga tao dhl gnun ako. d nmn ng lahat ngtao pero ung pagmamahal at pagkakaibigan na binigay ko sa iba, naibalik sa akin.

bakit pa nga ba ako nagrereklamo? simple. sa sobrang freedom sa UP, natatakot ako sa mga nadidiskubri ko tungkol sa sarili ko..pero aun nga. pag total freedom pa, walang pumipigil skn.

miss ko na ung taong sinasamba at dino-diyos. miss ko na ung taong pinagtatwanan lng ung mga masamang nangyayari sknya. miss ko na ung taong bumabangon ng mai ngiti at hinaharap ang araw ng may galak sa kanyang puso. miss ko na ung taong masipag, mabilis magtrabaho, mapagkakatiwalaan. miss ko na ung taong nirerespeto at tinitingala ng iba. miss ko na ung taong makakausap mo kht san man tungkol yan. miss ko n aung baliw. miss ko ung peacemaker na troublemaker din. miss ko n ung madalas mademonyo pero madalas parang anghel din. miss ko na ung mahilig gumimik at tumambay kung san2. miss ko na ung taong napaka-enthusiastic about life at di nauubusan ng ideas. miss ko na ung taong alam ang limitasyon niya. miss ko n aung taong tatanga-tanga minsan pero pag humirit, lahat mapapatulala. miss ko na ung taong mahilig magyabang at magfeeling. (ay w8, and2 p nmn ata un) miss ko na ung taong nakangiti lagi at di takot sabihin ang gusto niayng sabihin. miss ko na ung taong mas pipiliin magising at gumalaw kaysa matulog at maglakbay sa nakakaraan. miss ko ang nag-iisang taong minahal ko sa loob ng 16 na taon.

miss ko na si ernica.

alam nio ba kung asan xa? ipaalam nio nmn skn asap. kailangan ko xa ngayon.

the deal with names

mai cnend sa akin about sa names... ang freakish! totoo xa! tipong, if ur name starts with (letter), most probably, ur like this...

so ung sken, ernica d b? tsaka nicai? so 'e' at 'r'... (hindi ko nmn gnagamit lagi ang 'maria' eh...) at ito ung resulta skn...

Does your name begin with: E
Your greatest need is to talk. If your date is not a good listener, you have trouble relating. A person must be intellectually stimulating or you are not interested sexually. You need a friend for a lover and a companion You hate disharmony and disruption, but you do enjoy a good argument once in a while-it seems to stir things up. You flirt a lot, for the challenge is more important. But once you give your heart away, you are uncompromisingly loyal. You will fall asleep with a good book. sometimes, in fact, you prefer a good book to a lover)

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Does your name begin with: N
You are emotional and intense. When involved in a relationship, you Throw your entire being into it. Nothing stops you; there are no holds barred. You are all-consuming and crave someone who is equally passionate and intense. You believe in total freedom. You are willing to try anything and everything. Your supply of energy is inexhaustible. You want to be pampered and know how to pamper your mate. You also enjoy mothering your mate. You often have the greatest love affairs all by yourself, in your head. You are very imaginative.

o d b? 220??? freakish!

kung gusto niyo malaman ung sa inyo, email/txt nio lng ako... :) nskn ung list. finorward lng din skn sa email... un lng!

C

c can stand for a lot of things. it can mean 100 if ur talking bwt converting its roman numeral form to hindu-arabic. ts also the txt form of "see". a vitamin is also named after it. enervon and poten won't be complete without this letter!

im here to talk about the latter. the significance of enervon c in my life.

o cge. stop this mumbo jumbo na. tagalog na. im starting to sound like an infomercial eh! aun. ngayon ko lng narealize na super impt ang enervon / vit c! nung nag-stop ako mag-take, kala ko makakalma ako (since hyper ako lagi)  but to my suprise, nilagnat ako. nasanay na ako, i guess. to the point na dependent na ako. :( ts bad, i know...pano ba nmn kasi? bakit ko pa stinop?

bakit ng aba? i guess kasi wala na yung taong pagagalitan ako / constantly reminding me to take my vitamins. in short, namimiss ko na c papa. ako n nga lagi ung pinaka-late matulog paggabi eh. la na rin nagdadala skn ng water at milk bago ako matulog. la ng nagspospoil skn. ung tipong, isang sabi ko lng na may gusto ako, bibili nia na ako. or pag snbi kong bored ako, la ng magdadala skn sa mall. yes, spoiled ako. i admit it. kaya nga siguro lagi ako pinagkakamalan na only child eh. aun.

so miss ko lang tlga na may nagpapagalit skn or watever pag di ko tinatake ung vitamins ko..wla na rin nagtitimpla ng orange juice! ung sunquick! :(

hay. now, i guess i need to be totally independent na. tapos im in up pa! parang shockd lng cguro na nagaadapt ung body ko or whatever na from being so sheltered (well, not so much. super wild rin nmn ako nung nsa stc pa ako eh..hehe..)  and so...constrained...biglang, total freedom!

so i need to be responsible now. for myself. for my sake. ayaw ko na magkasakit. ang hirap magkasakit sa up! aun. so i need my daily dose of vitamin c! there u go! so boys and girls, dpn't 4get ur vitamins! take it everyday!

champorado and lugaw

this entry is dedicated to all the people who read my blog. shox. meron pala. eh puro joke time nilalagay ko dito eh...u must think im such a whiny person kaya i2..il show u my profound side...yes, sir...i am profound...i can be..aun...kaya i entitle this entry:

champorado and lugaw

binabaluck ako pag friday. bakit? hindi ko alam. il just tell u the story...

two fridays ago, nilagayn ng road blocks ung lagi naming dinadaanan on the way to the zoology bldg. bad3p. ibang ruta dinaanan namin kaya nagkanda-ligaw2 kame. at tinakbo ko pa ung bldg kc napadpad kme sumwr na...malay! bsta hingal na hingal ako pagdating sa classrm...nd sa ksamaang palad, inatake ako ng dysmenorrhea. eh pucha. i forgot na nattrigger nga pla un pag tumatakbo ako tas meron ako. bad3p tlga. so diretso ako cr and suka galore. (kc nagsusuka rin ako pag naddysmenorrhea) aun. i almost fainted sa cr..as in nakaupo na ako nd sandal malapit sa sink...tas naiiyak na rin ako pero buti nlang may senior dun na super bait tas aun..binili pa nga nia ako ng tubig eh..tas pinaypayan nia ako nd aun...sumhow, nabawasan ung pain as tym passed. aun, ate, i forgot ur name na pero salamat!

pagbalik ko sa classrm, nanuod lng pala ng movie. nagets ko nmn. about interfering RNA, gene theraphy, cloning and stem cells. tas nung philo, ok nmn ung report. may "inaway" ako na nagreport ksi di ako agree sa sinabi nia. fyn. debate lng nmn. tas naapreciate ko ung freedom sa UP na..wlang censor tska if u want to say sumtng, la tlga pipigil sau..ganun rin nmn ako s stc pero i usually end up sa ofc ni sacdalan.

english nmn. happiest tym of day. sobrang saya kc la c mam tas nanuod lng kme ng gawad concepcion-dufa...sumtng...astig ung binigyan ng award! kakatawa speech nia...tas nagbrown out nga eh. kahiya! at may mga nakatulog pa! (as ganti, sbrang pinag33pan namin sila ng classmates) tas aun. pagtapos ng gawad, nagnakaw kami ng pinangdecorate nilang banderitas.

after nun, diretso ako sa orientation ng upjc na nasa fc rin pla. after nun, tumambay sa kalai wid new frend jodi na frend rin pla nina leia and jona (frends ko sa kalai..) tas SC na. kumain kmi ng dinner ni angging habang hinihintay si freya. (singing hiskul musical wyl waiting) after 9897867yrs and 7 mos, dumating na c freya at diretso kme sa pep rally. (ah, ksam anga pla namin cuz ni freya n taga-uplb) aun. nkkatawa kc tinutulak namin c freya kay marvin..tas ang lankas ng inertia eh! pero nadapa xa! hehehe (sama!) aun. nwala ng temporarily ung attendance card ko pero nkaipit pla sa bio ntbk. (Tanga! halah! karma!)  aun. tas concert na. mga hanggang 9 sumtng lng kme tas umuwi na. nakisabay c mama at nagpahatid sa PETA theatr cntr dhl may practice xa.

happy wkend. halo ng malas at saya. kumain ako ng champorado that sat pm. sarap!

one friday ago nmn, nag-agahan ako ng sisig (matakaw!) pag punta ko sa skul, bio plang, im not feeling well n tlga. tambay sa AS after. break kc. and suka ako ng suka sa cr. tnxt ko cna mama ang titto ramil. nagpasundo na ako. bahala na ang english at autobio writing sa upjc. di ko n tlga kaya. aun. buti nlang andun s caloy (film rep ng block nmin) tas drinive nia ako sa infirmary kung saan nagsuka n nmn ako sa cr at diniretso sa ER. dpat nga ittest pa ako ng kng ano2 pero di n tlga ako makatayo. mahimatay-himatay na nga ako eh. may pinainom n gamot nd ininjectionan ako. c caloy nag-ayos ng pprs (ty, caloy!) and aun..di ko n tlga maalala pa ang ibang detalya dhl hilo2 na ako ds pt. bsat, nxt thing i knew, nasa car na ako nd pauwi...gastroentritis daw (nt sure s spelling) pero pag-uwo ko rin, nanuod ako ng news and i found out na pareho kme ng kundisyon ni manny pacquiao. may karamay ako! aun. nsa "bland diet" ako. dami ininom gamot nd nakaratay sa kama buong araw. pero sbrang na-touch ako kc daming tao nagtxt or called to check if im ok. as. buong wkend, i constantly keep on getng txts asking if im ok. sbrang touchd tlga ako...s lht, sobrang ty tlga! love ko kaung lht! aun.

kumain ako ng lugaw that sat pm. yak. ang pangit ng lasa. literal na kanin na may tubig lng.



so...anong moral of the story? meron nga ba? hay. maybe it's...life is like champorado ang lugaw. minsan masarap, minsan .... blegh....aun...pero definitely, hindi xa isang flavor lng. pero mas intrestng at xciting pag ganun d b? kung pare-pareho kc taste ng kinakain mo, kht fave mo man yan, magsaswa ka rin. tsak ail quote a line fr vanilla sky..."without the bitter, the sweet ain't as sweet..." aun! yahoo! may nasulat akong matinong entry! cge hanggang sa susunod!

decision

yes. like that poem i wrote. wahatever. i decided that i shouldn't feel miserable anymore... i decided that i should smile more... and yes, ur ryt...im taking anti-depressants...joke...

wala lng...haay...maybe i shud get on wid my lyf....maybe that was what the 1yr mark was for...all of us get to live different fairytales one story at a time but every story has an end. ganun nmn d b? after one fairytale, u move on to the next. ung iba, continuation pala nung dati and ung iba, completely different story.

hay. it was fun while evrything lasted. and it ended just the way i imagined it to be. kelangan ko na mag-move on...

i was laughing last friday nd i was smiling this sunday noon. i hope mejo tumagal-tagal nmn this tym.

obyus ba?

para s amga ndi pa nkakaalam..grounded ako. at an. cinonfisc8 cp ko...kaya ndi ko kayo nattxt...obyus ba? lagi nmn ako unli d b so magtaka na kau kng di ako nakakareply...

dito uli ako sa sc ngayon...ang loner ko. for real this tym.

joke! ngayon lng. nasa senti mood ako...naaalala ko kasi ung mga events na nangyayari one year ago...grabe. isang taon na ung nakalipas. ang twilight zone. di ak makapaniwalang one year na. fuck. one year na akong baliw! malay. may fits of hysteria and schizophrenia rin ak lately. nawawalan ako ng motivation mag-aral. naiiyak at mdrama lng tlga ako lately...wla ako lagi sa sarili at sa sariling pag-iisip...kaya siguro naground...aun...di ko alam. malay. bakit nga ba kaya ko nagkakaganito? para tuloy umulit ung nangyari ng third yr..haaay....im in this pit of desperation again...alam ko nmang ako lng makakaahon sken eh kaso di ko alam kung paano....tsaka malay. i think secretely, i enjoy being tormented rin kht papano. mai pgkamasochist ako eh...ang weird ko tlga...ah bsta...

so pano ng aba ako nakaahon dati? may tumulong ba? may nag-offer ba ng hand para iakay ako pataas? wla nmn eh...

ang ironic dhl bumabalik ako parehong hukay na ako mismo ang tumibag para sa sarili ko...

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miss you all...







hehe.:)

public apology

i am so dead!

sorry talaga sa lahat ng nasendan ng kakaibang mga message at testimonials sa account ko...super sorry talaga...

may mga walang magawa kasi na nang-ha-hack...oki, fyn, gawain ko rin un....i guess this is what people call "karma"...hahaha!:)

ano ba yan? sorry talaga! kahit di ako ung gumawa, sorry na rin...xempre, ayoko namang magbago tingin ng mga tao skin noh...

dun sa mga foreigner na nasendan ng weirdong mesg, sorry.... (hehe. magtagalog ba?)
kay bea rin at ellai at kata at lara, di tlga ako un! promise!

para sa mga taong nasendan pa....di ko na kaung kilala at alam lahat...patwad...waah...:o

at wala sana magseryoso dun...di ko naman kayo galit eh or anything...

un lng! i hope u all understand!

i hope di masira buhay ko at buhay nio dun..

it's just a prank anyway...

terminate

it's official.
i hate computers!
bakit ba madaling magloko mga comp pag hawak ko?
ok, fyn, minsan, siniswerte ako...tulad na lng nung nangyari nung eco...pero...
darn it!
bakit kasi ganun eh?
bakit sila madali magloko?
ano ba nakukuha nilang satisfaction dun?

buti pa ang tao, madaling pakiusapan, e ang computer, pag sira ung isang bagay, di mo maswee-sweet talk na "o cge na, diskette/cpu/cd/monitor/lahat ng hardware, buksan mo na file ko....sige na...lilibre kita...!"

hay. kasi ang tao, may puso! ang computer ---- wala!!!! kahit hirap na hirap na ako sa mga paperworks, wla xang pakialam! (*^)*^*^$&$&)*_)*((^#%!@$%$(^_*+_}{:"L mga computer yan!
kung di lng kau useful minsan, tinerminate ko na kayong lahat!
sorry, angging, i know you communicate better with computers, pero pare, ang gulo tlga nila minsan eh.....nagkaka-virus nga pero di namamatay...ah bsta....kung di naubos lahi ng mga yan, ako personally magpapaka-texas chainsaw massacre at cho-chop-chopin ko lhat ng mga computer!!!heheehe..
joke lng, tito bill gates....malapit hna nga pala grad ko....grad gift ah.....wag computer! kahit ano....wag lng computer,.....!

garrr.....

wla lng.....

shit...nilolow blood pressure daw ako...

nahihilo ng aako constantly eh...

bwishit...wlang pasok ngayon...

d b alam ng dep.ed at ng commision for higher educ ang magiging epekto nun sa emotional stability ko....?

ang gobyerno tlga...makasarili....garrr......

o ano?

sna wla na rin lng pasok bukas....

sana maextend grad...mar.31 na...hehehehehehehhe....

wag nmn...

gulo....

lasts

wla lng.
it's kind of frustrating na lahat ng ginagawa namin ngayon, last na....last project...last test...last period.....haay.....malapit na nga grad....aioko pa grumaduate! pero gusto ko narin matapos ung agony namin....ung dindanas namin every nyt!!! ung puro project tas di ka na makatulog...oh well...thas life....

update

nakapasa nga rin pla ako ateneo...pati scholarship....wla lng...gusto ko lng magyabang.....

up nlang....oh yeah....

i passed...

a) ateneo

b) la salle

c) up

d) all of the above....!

tapos sagot sa akin ung d!!!!!!!!! heheheheheheh! wla lng....

whaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

malay ko ba na lumalabas na sa profile ung mga updates sa blog....e ang tagal ko nang di nagfrefrendstr!!! nyahahhahaah!

busy. sobra. ngayon. i2 na daw ung talagang wlang tulugan portion ng fourth yr....

gusto ko nang matapos lht ng ginagawa na 2....magaabsent muna yta ako tom. hay.

ayoko na mag-aral....

%*^%&(*^(*& feasibility yan! wla nmn akong planong mag-business!

(*^(*&(*&)(& mga project yan!
at %^#&%$*^^( olympiad yan! naudlot trabaho ko jan!