5:1

u read that as "five is to one". ratio kasi. ts also the title of one of my future novelletes about these 5 guys (3 triplets and their 2 cousins) who all fell in love with the same girl. but they don't know it's the same girl since that girl has a lot of identities kasi she...aauuurrghh...spoiler....basahin nlang....

grabe ang buhay. and daming ratios. sa stats plang eh. sa opportunity cost. "sa bawat 1 chokolateng naproprodyus, .5 asako ng bigas ang di nproprodyus" churva...

haay. ang puso rin ba, pwedeng gawan ng ratio o opportunity cost? sa bwat minutong iniisip ko si batman, isang minuto ko ring di naiisip si superman....mga ganun?

sana kasing dali ng fractions at ratios ang mga emotions noh...sana nacocompute mo rin xa...

while i am sleeping

lately, pag nagigising ako, bigla na lang ako malulungkot. hindi ko alam. yung feeling na....basta. malungkot. or what i call, "enigmatic torment".

hindi ako masaya. period. ayoko na matulog.

pero at the same time, minsan, hinihiling ko na di na ako magising sa mga masasayang panaginip tungkol sa nakaraan.

far-sighted

turns out i'm far-sighted. sheesh. i just found out last wedensday. sigh. cough. and i thought i was pregnant. sigh. cough.

i'm wearing glasses now. and my hair's all curled at the tips. i braid it sometimes. seriously, i'm living in dreamworld, where i can pretend to be someone else or create a character. i disguise, i hide, i mock. i'm frowning more often. (at least i'm not crying anymore) and well, having to wear the glasses sort of was the last straw.

stupid medical check-ups. they say i'm "normal sighted" but if you analyze the tests performed in those check-ups, ul realize that it only diagnosesnear-sightedness. whatever. sheesh. now my head hurts. this is how the doctor explained it to me, "ur eyes are so sharp that it can see things from very far away so what more if it's near d b? thas why ur eyes are strained all the time..." all right. blame it on over-eating carrots.

having this uhmm...condition, actually reflected something about my personality. i see distant things. in tagalog, mas maliwanag sa akin ung nakikit ako sa malayo. may pros at cons un malamang. pros, xmpre, i could plan ahead dhl maganda nga foresight ko. (psychic rin b??? hehe..pwede!!!) cons, ah, here...we have to focus on this. UNG SA MALAYO LANG NAKIKITA KO NANG MALIWANAG...so pano na kapag malapit?

look at it this way. kung malayo na ang isang bagay sa akin, doon ko pa lang nakikita, and because of that, doon ko pa lang mas napapansin ung ano o sino man yun. let's focus on "sino"... (aba! analytical na ang pagproproseso!)

hay. totoo nga ang sinabi nila na mas naaapreciate mo lang yung tao pag wala na. si papa, mga HS friends, etc. ayoko talaga ng goodbyes. pero at the same time, i admit, i have the tendency of taking people for granted kapag andyan lang sila. :( malay.

bakit ganun, noh? kapag wala na sila, kapag may kasama na siyang iba, dun mo lang maiisip na di mo pala kayang mwala sila sa tabi mo. nung kaharap mo siya, binabalewala mo...e nung iba na kaharap niya, bakit ka naiinis? haaaaaay.  gulo ng buhay.

siguro nga, kailangan ko na magsuot ng glasses. it could do me some good. i'll give it a try.

tease/mock/die

inaamin ko. mayabang ako. aioko ng hinahamon ako sa mga bagay n obyus namang magagawa ko ng walang ka-effort2..

naaasar ako sa mga taong pinagdududdahan ang super powers ko...belat.. =p

the hell with them...i know who i am and what i'm capable of doing. aioko lang talaga n tinataunt ako.

humanda lang ang maghahamon sa akin o nag-iisip na kaya nila akong higitan sa mga bagay na alam kong bihasa na ako (and that's too many too count..and know..) o, anong disclaimer ko sa simula ng entry na ito?

months of d year

Jan
Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.
Feb
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.  Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.  Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.  Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.
Mar
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive.  Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.  Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.  Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others.  If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.
Apr
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.  Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic.  Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others.  Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that's caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.
May
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children.  Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.
Jun 
You've got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you've got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5  minutes.
Jul
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.  Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.  Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.  Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times.  Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.  dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days
Aug 
Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an "every thing's peachy" attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer.  Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of "that someone".  Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by "no pain no gain" caring.  Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious.  "charming" or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent.  Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.
Sept 
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional.  Stubborn.  Hasty.  Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.  Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand.  If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.
Oct 
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly.  Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable.  Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.
Nov 
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times.  Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent.  Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.
Dec
This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible... Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious.  Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best.  Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.  Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.  Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt.  Sensitive. [A hot new guy/girl will catch your eye & you will catch theirs too in the next 6 days, if you repost in 5min

book mania

i totally devour all the fictional books i could get my hands on. i prefer stories of forbidden love, unrequited love, historical love and dark love...



love...ang dami kong kilala na pinoproblema yan ngayon.



i honestly think the weather has something to do with it. yeah. global warming is slowly driving us mad.



and i try to keep myself sane by drawing myself into these books. i get to meet these lovely and wonderful characters. i fall in love with them. i befriend them.





aun. wla lng. boys and girls, always remember to feed your minds ah! read books!

ts good for your mind! and your heart. :)