far-sighted

turns out i'm far-sighted. sheesh. i just found out last wedensday. sigh. cough. and i thought i was pregnant. sigh. cough.

i'm wearing glasses now. and my hair's all curled at the tips. i braid it sometimes. seriously, i'm living in dreamworld, where i can pretend to be someone else or create a character. i disguise, i hide, i mock. i'm frowning more often. (at least i'm not crying anymore) and well, having to wear the glasses sort of was the last straw.

stupid medical check-ups. they say i'm "normal sighted" but if you analyze the tests performed in those check-ups, ul realize that it only diagnosesnear-sightedness. whatever. sheesh. now my head hurts. this is how the doctor explained it to me, "ur eyes are so sharp that it can see things from very far away so what more if it's near d b? thas why ur eyes are strained all the time..." all right. blame it on over-eating carrots.

having this uhmm...condition, actually reflected something about my personality. i see distant things. in tagalog, mas maliwanag sa akin ung nakikit ako sa malayo. may pros at cons un malamang. pros, xmpre, i could plan ahead dhl maganda nga foresight ko. (psychic rin b??? hehe..pwede!!!) cons, ah, here...we have to focus on this. UNG SA MALAYO LANG NAKIKITA KO NANG MALIWANAG...so pano na kapag malapit?

look at it this way. kung malayo na ang isang bagay sa akin, doon ko pa lang nakikita, and because of that, doon ko pa lang mas napapansin ung ano o sino man yun. let's focus on "sino"... (aba! analytical na ang pagproproseso!)

hay. totoo nga ang sinabi nila na mas naaapreciate mo lang yung tao pag wala na. si papa, mga HS friends, etc. ayoko talaga ng goodbyes. pero at the same time, i admit, i have the tendency of taking people for granted kapag andyan lang sila. :( malay.

bakit ganun, noh? kapag wala na sila, kapag may kasama na siyang iba, dun mo lang maiisip na di mo pala kayang mwala sila sa tabi mo. nung kaharap mo siya, binabalewala mo...e nung iba na kaharap niya, bakit ka naiinis? haaaaaay.  gulo ng buhay.

siguro nga, kailangan ko na magsuot ng glasses. it could do me some good. i'll give it a try.