Being in love with someone bipolar means being a bipolar yourself.
You cry for today and you just hurt so much but you tell yourself that 'tomorrow, for sure that tomorrow he will love me again'.
Saturday, November 22, 2008
what it really is
Cue sad music.
I don't have a haven. I thought I had but everytime I think I'm sure, that's when the heavens disprove my beliefs. It's always been that way.
Now when did I know that my life can't be too perfect?
Prolly when I was in third grade and realized that all the group productions I direct don't turn out the way I plan. There's always something that needs to be compromised, something that won't fit into the ideal.
Ideals are called just that. Ideals were synonymous to impossible.
Then I entered high school and lowered my expectations and had run-of-the-mill dreams and acted as if possessed by it and for several blissful moments, I was happy.
Then I became a wreck again and I thought that was the end for me but then I found love.
Then I thought I'd be okay again but somehow, I felt trapped. Trapped as in I don't know what I'm doing and if it's right or...
No, I don't want to run away. Do I delude myself that everything is happy and all right? Maybe it really is like that and I'm just scared to be happy because I know it's an elusive bitch.
Maybe I'm pretending to be happy pretending to be not-happy but then I don't know which is the chicken or the egg and I end up confusing myself.
So I choose to preocuppy myself with things that will avoid such subjects such as manga and friends' problems.
Because I want to cry but I'm afraid I'll dehydrate.
Because I'm scared to face all of 'em.
Or maybe I still have hope that what I think is the inevitable is not the ending life has for us.
I don't have a haven. I thought I had but everytime I think I'm sure, that's when the heavens disprove my beliefs. It's always been that way.
Now when did I know that my life can't be too perfect?
Prolly when I was in third grade and realized that all the group productions I direct don't turn out the way I plan. There's always something that needs to be compromised, something that won't fit into the ideal.
Ideals are called just that. Ideals were synonymous to impossible.
Then I entered high school and lowered my expectations and had run-of-the-mill dreams and acted as if possessed by it and for several blissful moments, I was happy.
Then I became a wreck again and I thought that was the end for me but then I found love.
Then I thought I'd be okay again but somehow, I felt trapped. Trapped as in I don't know what I'm doing and if it's right or...
No, I don't want to run away. Do I delude myself that everything is happy and all right? Maybe it really is like that and I'm just scared to be happy because I know it's an elusive bitch.
Maybe I'm pretending to be happy pretending to be not-happy but then I don't know which is the chicken or the egg and I end up confusing myself.
So I choose to preocuppy myself with things that will avoid such subjects such as manga and friends' problems.
Because I want to cry but I'm afraid I'll dehydrate.
Because I'm scared to face all of 'em.
Or maybe I still have hope that what I think is the inevitable is not the ending life has for us.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
KNN WEBSITE, SEMIFINALIST IN 11th PHILIPPINE WEB AWARDS!!
Everyone, this is your chance to bring KNN to new heights!
KNN has been named a semi-finalist in the 11th Philippine Web Awards (PWA), and we need your help to win advance to the final round!
Starting November 10, 2008, you can send your vote for kabataannews.com, eitiher via e-mail or text messaging (sms). Votes will be accepted until February 26, 2009.
To vote for KNN VIA TEXT, type:
WEBBYS VOTE 61
Send to the following numbers:
2973 for Globe and Touch Mobile subscribers
* Smart numbers to follow
To vote for KNN ONLINE:
Online voting is FREE!
All you need to do is visit and register at http://www.philippi newebawards. com.
Semifinalists will be trimmed down by a panel of judges to five finalists per category. KNN is nominated under Entertainment. Entries that will make it to the finals round will be in the running for the Best Web Site Award in their respective categories. The winners will be chosen by a panel of judges based on a set criteria which can also be found in the PWA site.
The entry that receives the most number of votes in its group will win the Peoples Choice Award for that category.
The complete list of the 2008 semifinalists can now be viewed in the official PWA site in the Member's Lounge of www.philippinewebaw ards.com.
VOTE NOW!
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