epiphanies, epiphanies, epiphanies...

so yeah, i finally admit that i went rebel mode for a while. heck, for a while?

fine. i upgraded my pranking skills, blackmailing skills and you-know-what skills.

(insert a very long sigh here)

and yeah, i've been disppointed with myself, not because of failure but because of success. that is, success in achieving the wrong things in life. what are the wrong things? maa, those are obvious. . .

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we had a pseudo-retreat last GA at KNN. apple fale and barri supe were my groupmates. yeah, "the perfect cast" as barri said.

besides having a pre-comm141 lec, we had this honesty activity.

barri affirmed me while apple gave me pieces of advice. tas i affirmed apple while barri gave her advice tas i gave barri advice while apple affirmed him. gets? cycle xa hehe

so ayun. super eye-opening. i mean, i've admitted several times that this year has been hard and one of the reasons why was because i've doubted myself, my qualities and all that is good in me.

it's a good thing we had the activity. as barri affirmed me, i kind of started to trust myself again.

apple's pieces of advice made miracles as well. she said that life is this process of discovering yourself and not being who you think you want to be or what people say you should be.

she also said that i should stand out and maximize my potentials. she reminded me that while many people could be successful, only a very few could make a difference.

(insert a longer sigh here)

hello, world. i'm finally back to my old self again. i'll try to be more sane, swear.